Friday, 2 September 2016

Stepping out of my comfort zone..

For those that know me well, I'm one of those people who likes a plan, I like to know timings of things and I like to have a routine. But just recently i've been feeling a lot more relaxed and have been wanting to try new things. For as long as I can remember, i've suffered with anxiety but up until a few months ago, I don't quite know what happened, but I feel different, i'm suddenly more relaxed. I can't explain how or what but I suddenly had this epiphany. I've been stuck in the same cycle of things for a good few years and this year I have really begun to explore and get back out into the big wide world again. It's a work in progress, I can't just cart myself and Abbie off to the other side of the world just yet, but all the little steps i'm doing are really doing wonders for my confidence. Realising that I CAN do what I really want, it's an amazing feeling.

I know what i'm about to say might not be a big deal for some people, it might be your daily life, but for me, who's always been held back by anxiety, it's such a big step. So this past weekend Abbie & I jumped on a train to visit my Sister for her Birthday. A year ago I would
be panicking about how I was going to get there, how would Abbie be, the journey, when would I stop, would she sleep ok somewhere else, would she be clingy etc etc, constant anxiety! Abbie isn't the greatest traveller in a car because she gets the worst car sickness, so taking the train was the next best option. I was a little apprehensive, I didn't want her to be poorly and then have to worry about the journey home too..

Aside from a new nerves, I was surprisingly calm, an oddity for me to say the least. I don't want to go on about how proud I am of myself, (although if anyone has any gold stars to hand, I won't turn that down....), I have to put all my calmness down to the absolute perfection Abbie was the ENTIRE time, firstly, it was her first time on a train, ever, she took it in her stride, sat in her seat quietly and watched out the window, we even had a half hour wait for the second train as well, and she was amazing with that, didn't bat an eyelid on that train either and coming home was even better, I can't even find the words to describe just how proud of her I am, I'm so so lucky to have such a wonderful little cherub!

We had such a lovely time away, Abbie thoroughly enjoyed herself, she literally didn't stop all day, playing with the other kids, enjoying the amazing toy room her Auntie has and also trying to steal the neighbours cat..sorry Alfie. I took a few hundred photos whilst I was there too, so nice to take my camera out again, it's been far too long, so i'm gonna leave you with some of those now, hope you all have a good weekend :)

The morning after....

8 comments so far

  1. I also used to suffer from anxiety and also just woke up one day and just rationalised my fears. It's great you're starting to enjoy days out etc without the anxiety.

  2. As someone who suffers with general anxiety and social anxiety, i can totally relate to this. And it is a BIG deal, so you have every right to be proud of yourself. Well done you for stepping out of your comfort zone and pushing yourself to do/try new things. xx

  3. As someone that lives with anxiety everyday its really lovely to read that you have been able to overcome it and pus yourself to do this. It looks like a lovely birthday party x

  4. Oh well done you - so lovely to read about how far you have come, and see your lovely pics. I fear I am the opposite, and my anxiety is recently increasing. Kaz x

  5. Beautiful photos.

    Listen, you deserve ALL the gold stars. I stress out about taking our two-year-old to the park most days so I think what you did is amazing. I'm so glad Abbie was good for you too, it makes all the difference. Hopefully this will be the start of many more bold adventures for you both.

    Jenna at Tinyfootsteps xx

  6. This is such a lovely post. I'm glad you are feeling more positive.

  7. Beautiful photos, it looks like you had a great time! Well done you for stepping out of your comfort zone :) x

  8. Your photos are beautiful, it sounds like you had a wonderful time. I'm glad you are feeling much better and postive


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